25/02/2021
Hello thr...
Here am I again.. Seems like the long lost dark seeds in my heart are coming back. Oh wait, I think they never left. It was there and it is there and it will be there. It never left.. I've been fighting this for years.. Thinking about coming back but somehow got the strength to resist it.. But I guess for now.. I'm losing the strength.. In fact, maybe I never gain any.. I'm just pretending I had it.. And yea, even just to pretend.. I'm losing the minimal strength to pretend it.. So I guess that's it.. Here we go again.. Hey Satan, I'm back and I think you got my word that I would not leave again.. Hell is where I belong.. It is uncomfortable.. But I guess my kind of comfortable is keep being uncomfortable.. That's where I belong.. That's my home.. Btw - tell you something funny.. Just not long ago, I did feel and kinda sure that I'm actually in the heaven.. I even think the dark seeds within me has gone.. What a shame.. But now I realized, it wasn't gone.. in fact, it has grow.. to a big giant tree.. and that's why I have this misunderstanding of the seeds are gone hahahaha.. The dark seeds has grown so tall and huge... The leaves are so huge.. make the light impossible to shine through.. So yea.. it's pure dark now.. I don't feel anything at all to be honest.. I'm just back to where I belong.. I belong to darkness.. I fu***ng love it.. Oh yes... it feel so good to be back.. Pain is beautiful.. give me more.. I need more..
Alright.. this is just FYI that I've back.. See you again very soon..
